This year I’m spending the holidays traveling through new-to-me lands. Except for a solo adventure to Oaxaca, I’m traveling with a friend. (More details to come in a separate post.) Much to my surprise, traveling with a single friend has left me feeling more alone than when I travel solo. My theory? With daily doses of companionship, I’m not seeking new connections, choosing instead to spend my days processing this emotional year. Which winds down to me wrapping every day in an empty bed that feels emptier than my empty bed at home.
Which isn’t to say that this is a sad day. Quite the contrary. I could be with family. I’m blessed with a large, inviting family that I sincerely enjoy–my friend family included. So while I chose to spend tonight on my own, I chose to write a song in honor of my friends and families.
I don’t know if it could ever capture just how blessed I feel. Nevertheless, I ventured out to the sunset rocks, in the dark, to record with the waves crashing around me…bringing all the love and laughter from my dispersed families into one cozy, lucky space. If you’re reading this, this is for you. Thank you for being a friend and may you feel loved.
P.s. While I wrote and shared the song with a few friends on Christmas, I didn’t post here until New Year’s.
Letra…
This song came in on the wings of a pelican
Diving deep, not afraid to drown
Will keep diving til we die…
In the darkness we DREAM, yet in the light we burn.
Ain’t it funny how the world turns things around?
Yet it gives us what we need, when we need it?
Sometimes I need to be alone, when the weight of the world is too much (to hold).
Sometimes I need a friend to hold my hair, when it all comes up again.
Let’s shed our shame into the sea , cut all the weights keeping us from being free.
Ain’t no use being tethered to the ground, spinning in circles and spewing HATRED all around.
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Don’t go thinking it’s all lies, that we’re better off being dead inside.
Don’t go leaving me for dead, you know I’ll be back inside your head.
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In the darkness we DREAM, yet in the light we burn.
Ain’t it funny how the world turns things around?
yet it gives us what we need, when we need it?
SOMETIMES I just really need a friend to hold me through the night.
Thank you for being a friend to your friend when she needed you.
Now it’s time for me to be my own friend,
Time to shed this shame into the sea…
