Tag: my life

another new year? i’ll take it.

Yesterday I saw posts a flurry on the facebooks and twitters about the importance of so many 1’s in the date. Despite being a little bummed that the apocalypse didn’t happen as scheduled for viewing with a friend at 1:11 1:11 ’11, I realized this morning that much of what had been stressing me out…




I got my new ID!

OK, it’s not quite as straightforward as it sounds as it seems I’ve actually misplaced my driver’s license once again. On the bright side, I’ve finally finished (note that’s a lowercased “finished”) my collection of websites, including … drum roll … the simpler and quirkier jewel.mlnarik.com. This means I can finally tackle the family website…




Why Photography?

Recently, I found myself wondering why it is I photograph. It’s something I’ve wanted to re-engage with, without really knowing why. And I needed a strong connection to make the time for it I’d need to commit. I was surprised at my self-serving reply: to find myself, or a place for myself, in this world…




a perfectionist at 12

Another one from the archives. 3.26.08. Funny how fast we grow and life changes in a year. Would be embarrassing if it weren’t honesty. when i was 8 i wanted braces – i’d make my own with paper clips. when i was 10 i wanted contacts – i’d suck on ice and put it in…




desert poem

From the archives. 2.3.08 if i’d have known you as a Saguero, i’d have hunted for your flowers at night: suckled stamina, swam in scents, and kissed each sweetly good night – before they close in morning (for eternity?) if i’d have known you as a Vampire, i’d have been seduced into the quagmire of…




therapy = no health insurance

This has turned out to be a doozy of a week. First, a client of mine laid off all contractors and cut back employees. Very sad despite how much cut backs were expected. Then I received a letter from ODS saying that I was declined the health insurance I applied for over a month ago,…




Ask and Ye Shall Receive … and some front seat driving

Today culminated with a resounding reminder and notion: Ask and Ye Shall Receive. It’s not a novel concept. Even as I write it, the old hymn from church lulls me back to the days when I loved singing in church. I could be loud and still unseen, lingering in a place where no wrong and…




Maui: Day 2

Wednesday is my first full day on the island. I’m still on Portland time, so I rise with the sun, around 8 (6 Hawaiian). I join Paul on his “constitutional” – a 3 mile walk down the coast, past the really rich resorts including the Grand Wailea, where Oprah stays (or hosted a holiday party…




Maui: Day One

Notes from my first trip off the continent. Mahalo. Not sure what this word means, but the folks on Hawaiian can’t get enough of this word. A friendly gentleman tells me that tomorrow and Sunday will be the best days to learn how to surf and I’m not sure if this is truth or the…




When was the last time you felt ALIVE? (Antony and the Johnsons)

After watching a breathtaking, tear-jerking and passionate performance of Antony and the Johnsons with the Oregon Symphony, I quip to my friend, Joe: If you like DRUGS, you’ll LOVE the symphony! We walk out of the Shnitz with an extra hop in our steps and I have passion bubbling inside and I think I may…




Family Fun, Black Butte and Bend

I’m alive. Just been lazy with the computer. Summer is just so much more fun spent outside, on the beach and in swimming pools. This week my uncle Paul invited me out to Black Butte, just outside of Sisters, OR. My friend, Kyle, and I drove out late Tuesday night so we could get in…




Heatwave and Leaving Portland

Summer has hit Portland, finally! Yesterday temperatures reached 96 F while John and I rode around Portland in search of a fountain and a happy hour. If you haven’t visited the sunken rose gardens in North Portland, do it! Our super find of the day was “Liberty Glass”, a block south of Fremont on Mississippi….




On Being a Champion

Simply put, it rocks – like the music at SXSW. Of the 15,000 folks at the festival, around 100 entered a softball tourney, the entertainment for the close out BBQ. Those braves played their hearts out on dusty fields after 4 days of continuous drinking, partying and little sleep. And some of us won. I…




Tennessee Tannin to Memphis Grays

It’s affirmative. Nashville is a rockin’ city, even for non country die-hards like myself. I want to drink more Jack Daniels and expect to see live music in every venue, for free, with dancing groupies collecting tips for the band. Among my favorites (and ones I can remember): Jypsi :: extremely sexy, with style to…